Fat.
Yup. That is what I am.
And I am tired of it.
And I am tired of it.
I am pretty sure there aren't any other women out there
depressed at being at their pre-pregnancy weight.
And it really isn't about the numbers this time. I feel fat. And I feel bad, and unhealthy.
But I have a plan, and its going good.
I am doing the C25K program again.
I'm on Week 1 Day 3.
My calves and legs have been sore. But my knees are holding up, and the breathing is getting a little easier. Hopefully in a couple months I will be able to run 3 miles.
I have been getting up at 6 am to run, which I hate, but it is the only time in the day I have to myself.
And I feel quite proud that I can accomplish something that early in the morning.
I have been eating better lately too.
(Not counting my out of control binging... but I will get to that later.)
I'm not following any sort of plan right now, but I will start one soon.
Just wanted to put it out there.... That I am trying again.
Put it in writing, you know...to give myself more accountability.
I really want to do it this time. I can't fail.... again.
Cause every time I do, I just get fatter.
And I really want to be a runner, more than anything.
Here's the plan;
Monday, Wednesday, Friday - 6am, C25K
Saturday - 8am, I do C25K with my friend.
I don't have anything for Tuesday or Thursday yet, I am thinking of a yoga class.
Also looking for my first race to do in March.
Wish me luck. Send me prayers. Help a sister out!
I don't have anything for Tuesday or Thursday yet, I am thinking of a yoga class.
Also looking for my first race to do in March.
Wish me luck. Send me prayers. Help a sister out!