The one where I tell you I am going to start over on my diet (really this time), but only after Clark's birthday cake is all gone.

Ugh. Meh. Blah. Gah. Bitch. Moan.

I need to get my butt back in gear. I have gained more wieght. 208lbs!

Yikes.

It makes me so sad... but I guess not sad enough to actually do anything about it. I hate being fat, I hate it. I am so embarrassed all the time, and I don't ever feel like MYSELF.

I am really wanting to start over this coming week. I am so tired of telling myself I am going to, and then not. So, this Monday I am going to do it. I know I will feel so much better, whether I have success or not, as long as I am trying.

I also want to plan to run a 5k this summer. I am not sure which one yet, cause we will be in the process of moving. But I am going to find one tomorrow (so stayed tuned).

My new workout/running routine will be:

Walk 1/2 mile, then run 1/2 mile-for 2 weeks.

Walk 1/2 mile, then run 1 mile-for 3 weeks.

Walk 1/2 mile, then run 1 1/2 miles-for 2 weeks.

Walk 1/2 mile, then run 2 miles-for 3 weeks.

Walk 1/2, then run for 2 1/2 miles-for 2 weeks.

As so on until I get up to 5 miles. After that I will re-evaluate my training, and maybe find a longer race... half marathon??!!

Ok, here I go...AGAIN.

I am so tired of starting over, and quitting.